Here is what I do know has happened since May 1st when I last blogged:
My Mom's cancer came back with a vengeance and I have been by her side every step of the way since. Through every Dr's appointment, chemotherapy and helping around the house. I call her every day when I wake up to see how she is doing. My brother and I even shaved our heads with her in June.
(with our family friend who shaved our heads)
She is doing well for right now, and I couldn't be happier. These last couple of months have been a whirlwind but have taught me oh so much. I also did something I've thought about doing for a very long time, but never had the courage to. However, due to personal and professional circumstances beyond my control, it was time I started to see a therapist. This was single handedly the greatest decision I've ever made. I worked through a large part of the professional issues, and continue to work through my personal struggles and demons.
R and I went to Vegas in June. One of the greatest vacations I've ever had. I needed that time away, and we needed that time together. Enough said. (and no we did not get married :) )
My Dad, by the grace of God, found a job in July. This was a huge blessing to our whole family. Due to the economy he had been laid off since October 2009. Him returning to work took a huge load off my Mom's shoulders. Him being laid off though when he was, I believe was also a gift from God. He was able to be there for my Mom through the hard parts. He was at all the appointments and treatments at first as well. We were like the 3 stooges traipsing through the doctors office at times. Dad and I were constantly cracking jokes and what not to try and ease the situation for my Mom. There was some great memories and moments created during those times.
I tried to go back to school. I tried and am failing miserably. I've always had it in my head that I want to go to graduate school. However, school for me has always been a thing of convience. My chosen subject for my Bachelor's degree was only chosen because work helped pay for it. That's it. It was easy and the program worked with my work schedule. I returned to school in August and have already dropped 2 of my classes, and believe I will be dropping the 3rd this week. I just have no desire what so ever to be in school right now. Maybe its my attention issues, and hopefully those will be completely ironed out sooner rather than later, or maybe its just because now is not the right time.
I don't know much right now about what I want to do. I do know where I want to be, however that also depends on a certain someone, who as of right now can't even commit to a joint phone bill that would save us both money. *ahem*FRUSTRATED*ahem* After 3 years, a joint phone bill with no binding contract isn't a lot to ask, but I digress. I guess I'll just keep waiting for a sign of where I'm supposed to be.
